matteiathena:

image

I am sorry. That was not my intention. It is not your fault in the least dear sister. No one is going to be able to help him, he needs to figure out how to help himself. [She listens for a moment and pauses before she speaks.] The thing is he is always doing both at the same time. Yes I suppose Hermes would know how to help better. I suppose I am not very comforting. I am sorry.

I didn’t mean it that way.  Hermes… he just has this way of making me feel better…. no matter the circumstance.  It’s nothing against you, or anyone else who has tried to help.  He’s just… different.  Always has been.

As far as Hades….. you would think over the years the trickery would have ended.  You’d think he would have seen by now that I don’t want to be with someone who feels the need to lie to me, or try to trick my emotions.   My qualms have nothing to do with him living in the Underworld, or being the God of the Dead, but everything to do with the fact that he feels me shallow enough to have to be tricked into love.   If he truly wanted me as his wife then it should have been different.  I should have been different to him, but instead I’m one more pawn in his games.

"You spend your days alone, still hopin’ for the truth, oh - But all you hear are lies - But no one else is gonna tell you what to do now - No one else is gonna help you hold the line." - [x]

"You spend your days alone, still hopin’ for the truth, oh - But all you hear are lies - But no one else is gonna tell you what to do now - No one else is gonna help you hold the line." - [x]

matteiathena:

image

I will not tell you how you should or should not feel. Guilt does not always make sense and I will be the first to admit that. However sister I can tell you that any anger he is feeling is not from you. It seems like it is, but he is angry at himself not you. Unhappiness that he has is from his own mind. He has done and seen things that have made him think he has to be angry and unhappy. That is not your battle to fight, that is his.  I will not involve you at all if you wish for me to talk to him. Both of you need time to figure out what you wish to do and you need to be able not to feel nervous. And the gods know he needs to try and heal.

Now that just makes me feel worse.   Like I should try and help him in some way.  It never works.  I feel like I have to have my guard up always.  When is he saying words to just gain my sympathy and which are the truth?  The question always lingers, and it’ll just lead to more arguments.  I just don’t know what to do anymore.   Continuing to avoid him seems best…. I don’t know… maybe Hermes has an idea of how I can distract myself from dwelling on this whole mess….

apolloswreckage:

Hm? I wasn’t aware I had that. Well come on! The fish wait for no man!

image

Alright, alright.  Lead the way.

matteiathena:

There is nothing wrong with you. I just do not understand. I would not worry about it much, I do not understand a lot of things.

He has obviously bothered you in some way even if you are unwilling to share.

image

I have my ways. I am sure I can convince him to leave you alone. I do convince people out of situations. People usually listen when I give them some wisdom about their situation.

Well, how our talk went certainly bothers me.  He’s angry, and even if I shouldn’t, I feel guilty for making him unhappy.  But I also feel regret for myself, as his anger is something he’s likely to act on, and I don’t think it’ll be without some involvement in person.   I feel like if I say or do anything else, it’ll just make things worse.

What Goes Around || Hermes & Persephone

therovingkind:

"You have every right to your feelings, Persephone." Hermes immediately reassured his friend. "No matter what anyone says, no matter what happened, what you agreed to, you are allowed to be angry with him, or frustrated, or sad about the life you lost. You do not simply have to passively accept what you don’t like. That being said…" He sighed a little, shrugging. "It is up to you to seek your own happiness. You do not have freedom exactly, but Aphrodite is sworn to her husband, whom we all know she loathes, and she is still happy in the arms of Ares."

He shrugged, taking a sip of his tea and leaning back in his chair. “You have choice, so long as we are stuck here. You can choose to get to know your husband all over again, perhaps talk to him and tell him that if he ever loved you he should woo you properly. Or you could find love somewhere else, with a mortal, or one of us and then figure out how you’ll make it work, or if you’ll even choose to continue the affair if we ever get back to Olympus. And those are just some of the choices you can make, sister. Did you tell him him that you didn’t appreciate how he was making you feel? He should know that he needs to watch how he speaks to you. You’re literally a fucking goddess and he has no right to treat you as anything but such. I hope you told him off, at the very least.”

She thought of how their interaction had escalated.  So quickly it had gone from courteous to threatening, and she knew it wasn’t entirely at the fault of Hades.  She knew to keep quiet and she hadn’t… and to make it worse she’d insulted him.  The gift of his not pursuing her here… she shouldn’t have snapped at him.

"I——well, I definitely made it clear I wasn’t happy," she said, her hesitation more from her own self criticism than anything," It really doesn’t matter now.  He’s made it clear that there will be no more space, that he intends to make sure the freedom I had will no longer be there."

She stole a glance up at him,” If I hadn’t said anything nothing would have changed.  But I let my mouth get the best of me, and I feel horrible, and my stomach has been in knots ever since, and the idea of going home alone and just sitting there wondering if he’ll come knocking was just too much.”

matteiathena:

I suppose I do not understand that. My job deals with death and dying individuals. With heroes who will never see the world they create. Honor that has been responded to with brutality. I have stood next to weeping mothers and children without hope. However when I see happy things it does not seem sad or tainted. It makes me think what I do might matter in the end. Even if it is only a brief flicker of a dying candle at least it shown in the darkness. I may not be able to give them peace, but at least I can give them that. At least I can give them hope that the world is not as dark as it appears.

image

If you feel melancholy do not be afraid of sharing it. No one will ever be happy all of the time. It is not your fault. He has a habit of pushing people he loves away. He also has a habit of trying to prove he is a villain. If you wish I will see to it that he does not bother you for awhile.

I don’t know.  I just can’t help but keep going back to all of it.  Perhaps there’s just something wrong with me?

He hasn’t been bothering me.  It was a coincidence that we even saw each other… 

….how would you keep him from bothering me?

matteiathena:

image

I see. What is this shadow if you do not mind me asking? You can still seek that new start sister but I must warn you it will never be like it once was. You can never go back to that time. What has happened is written in the stars. That does not mean you cannot seek a new path.Being mortal allows for fresh starts even if you think you messed it up. You are literally the goddess of change, of renewal. If you need a new start just start again. You are now wiser than you were before you poked the beast and therefore you can have another fresh start.

Death, decay, suffering… I’ve seen it all and it’s tainted the beauty I once saw in everything.  A flower is beautiful, but one day it will wither.  A child is joyful and sees light in the world, but it will grow old and know darkness and soon it will die.  The silver lining now comes to me more as a grey.  It’s morbid and horrible and there are just days I don’t feel I can handle it.

I’m sorry.  I’m not meaning to come off so melancholy.  I had a fight with my husband, and now things are just a bit rocky.  I was quick to attack him when I saw him and it’s sort of just left everything dark for me right now.

apolloswreckage:

Fantastic. Then let’s get to it. (He starts off walking quickly, turning around once to nod his head at her.) What’re we waiting for?

image

Sorry!  I was just taking a moment to admire your childlike enthusiasm.

erebusofshadows:

I was being sarcastic.

So was I.